a long ass time later

so I'm sitting here drinking and smoking alone. If only i had Gus. If only i had Matt. Im sitting here thinking they are practically forcing me to turn up alone. But wait a second. non of them are or ever even were mine there for I'm just turning up alone because i haven't found the one i want to turn up with yet. Im just not there yet and its ok to take time to be a bad bitch by yourself. fuck men being the completion to being a women. This is clearly something I'm going to have to figure out alone..